I don’t know. I’m just at a point now where I feel so unwanted and disliked that it’s getting too difficult to be optimistic and hopeful, and I just really hate myself. I hate being me, I hate breathing, I hate waking up. I don’t even want to be around people, not because I dislike them, but because I dislike myself. It doesn’t make any sense. I don’t know what this feeling is, I’ve never felt it. I know I don’t want to die, I’ve been through that before and I’ve gotten over it. I don’t know what it is, but I’m stuck in this really horrible place. 

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